Count It All As Lost

I want to believe these words are more than letters to me
I want to believe a covenant to stand the battlefield of time
Many times I've written words holding me to stay pure
Where is the truth in these motions, afterwards feeling motionless?
Motionless, I keep breaking my promises
I keep breaking my word to you and I
I keep breaking my promises
Once again, I'm letting you downHow must a broken man fix his brokenness if he's not the answer?
I can't do this on my own, on my own
I need you here, I need you here, I need you here
Each and every day that passes leaves me worse off than before
Many times I've sworn
I wouldn't look back, never look backInstead of fighting to be a man I just want to know who I am
Fighting with my fists leaves me bloody and broken almost every single time,
So I'm going at it with your strength instead of mine
Please be my strength
So I'm going at it with your strength instead of mine
Please be my strengthI've carried this burden long enough
With a heart of conviction, I've betrayed us both
I have to forfeit
The shame is too much to take
Take the lead and reign over me
Reign reign reign over me
Reign reign reign over me