Never Surrender Virtue

i don't drink to forget 
i drink so i can suffer twice as much 
cuz in this world of pain 
nothing breaks the memory of your touch 
what was i thinking 
i should have kept drinking 
to flood you face from my mind 
but now it's over and i'm sober enough 
to know you fucked my mind 
love can seem like slow death 
if it's not returned 
you will feel your body and soul 
start to burn with desire 
and unrelenting pain 
the tears they cloud my eyes 
i bite my tongue till i taste my blood 
so you won't hear my cries 
hiding in my private darkness 
i put you out of my mind 
my fear of death being overcome 
by my hatred for this life